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Mania/Auditory Hallucinations/ disorganized thinking : My life without Social Media

 


1:08AM

It's late at night. My schizophrenia episode has made me question if I will be strong enough to get things done. The truth: I have ALWAYS been strong. I'm always that friend that has your back and never looks back... but who has my back?
It's been officially a week since saying goodbye to social media. Social media really distorts human beings'perception of oneself. I think it makes people ignorant, arrogant, and just down right dirty. I get it. We just never had this much access to free information. Being able to track people down you don't like only reinforces the fact that we are being conditioned to react, rather than being the creator of one's destiny. We mindlessly scroll on social media, looking to fill a void that we have to learn to fill on our own. At least that's how I view it. 
1:20AM
My schizophrenia may seem fake to some, but it is in fact very real for me. My auditory hallucinations are mimicking celebrities..calling me horrible things only to distract me from the truth: I am a vibe, I am beautiful, and I really am that b*tch who doesn't need validation in order to feel appreciated. 

Haters are like voices. They're that voice in your head that keeps nagging about that job you didn't get, that girl you never dated, or that hat you couldn't afford. Haters are simply here to remind you that you are lacking in some area in your life (which is normal) and they will help you get there! 
1:26AM
My haters help me every.single.day. 
They remind me of how basic I would be if I didn't hear them. 


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