1:46AM Some days I can be a little overly judgemental of myself, my progress, and my very wellbeing. It's 2026 now and I didn't go out to the club. As I am growing up, I realize that I don't need to feel the pressure to fit in a society that never welcomed me, accepted my flaws, or accommodate to my short comings. I learned to be grateful for the little things. The fact that I can go home to see my adorable dog welcoming me is something worth sharing. In less than 3 months I will be 1 year celibate. This is a huge deal for me, because I would accept the bare minimum from men, not feeling that I deserved more or better. Being celibate has gotten me closer to God, someone I didn't express much faith in in my earlier years. I can now say positively that God is my best friend. I got saved 2 years ago when my schizophrenia symptoms were a lot worse. I hope with 2026, I can get closer with GOD. I hope I can get through these auditory hallucinations that comes with being a ...